A strage sense of self-understanding

In the Modes of Existence Book
pg 410
"the individual is second and secondary, entirely dependent on the multiform roles left in the wake of the courses of contraqdictory injunctions that can never aseemble these roles in a round, solid, full, subject....the agents ... must.. beg from the value meters to which bthey are connected the alms of fragments of approximate reasoning...What do we find in its place? Quivering little beings wandering around groping in the dark while waiting to receive something from the passage of scripts: sometimes fragments of projects, sometimes allocations of preferences, sometimes suggested roles, sometimes quittances"

I am also reminded of Seferis' "Last stop" (http://www.jstor.org/stable/29737258?seq=2#page_scan_tab_contents)

humankind is tender, a sheaf of grass;
 lips and fingers yearning for a white breast
eyes half-closed against the glare of day
and legs that would run, be they never so exhausted,
at the slightest whiff of gain.
Humankind is tender and thirsty as the grass,
insatiable like the grass, its nerves are roots that spread;

(though later:
Can humankind be something different?
Is it not that which transmits life?
A time to sow, a time to reap. )

I am also reminded how much in our experience is a stage and a dream. How much for example is our visual experience full of estimations and coverups, a cloth full of holes and yet feeling so full and complete.  Yet fullness and completeness is not the most basic. The flow of true communication is the most basic and we can learn to accept to live with very limited means if we feel we can secure this.